Good and Bad...

But first, the bad.

Something I'm sure a lot of you that live up here can agree with is how annoying our foreign neighbors from the north can be.  It's been something that has bothered me for as long as I can remember.  Whether its driving behind them or being in the mall on a weekend.  Their pure ignorance of anything else that is going on outside of their personal bubble is rediculous.   Anyway, there is a reason for this.  At work today, 10 minutes before closing (ofcourse), a Canadian family comes into the store.  Here's my problem with this:  A)  Thank you for showing up at the last possible minute asshole, we've been open all day.  B)We're a LEASE TO OWN business.  You dont live here, I cant rent shit to you.  C) Your kind annoy the piss out of me more than anything EVER.  So anyway the head of the family (we'll call him Pierre) walks in with his family and spouts a very french "Good Morning!" (yep, almost 7 at night).  At this point I sigh and continue to help the nice local lady who stepped in moments before.  On my way back across the show room I see Mrs. Pierre-Napoleon-Crepe and ask if she has any questions.  She replies with a dumb look and a "Thank You."  At this point I'm as annoyed as possible and the husband stops me and asks if we lease to own.  I said "Yes, ofcourse but if you're from out the country we cant lease anything."  At this point he gets a look on his face and in his very french, annoying voice says "No!  We arent from outside the country!  We are from the Plattsburgh!"  At this point I just turn and walk away and they walk out of the store.  What the fuck!  Sorry for assuming that you're some stuck up French asshole from Canada when actually you're some stuck up French asshole who lives in town.

Somewhat good news:  I've felt the itch to play World of Warcraft again (not the good news).  Over the past few days I've had to call Blizzard for various reasons.  From removing an authenticator to having my account unbanned because it was hacked.  This last time (2nd time today), was because my friend Steve tried using a "Scroll of Resurrection" on me which gives me 10 free days to play since its been over 90 days since I've played.  It wouldnt work.  So I called and explained the situation and the lady was very nice and understanding (AND ENGLISH!).  She stated that the scroll can only be used on an account once, which is bullshit because I've used it atleast twice, but that she would be willing to see what she could give me for free time.  Completely out of nowhere!  How many places just offer free shit for no reason at all?!  Anyway, while she was looking at my account I was telling her the reason I had stopped in the first place.  I had switched phones without disabling my authenticator which essentially meant I couldnt do shit without calling Blizzard.  Anyone who's ever had to call Blizzard knows that it requires a good hour or so of listening to classical music.  Therefor I never bothered until now.  I cancelled the account shortly after and that was that.  She had noticed that I had stopped playing only 3 days after my last payment and gave me back all 27 unplayed days of game time for free (I know, i technically paid for them already).  I guess I just wish all customer service was as awesome as theres.  Everytime I've contacted them they've answered my questions and solved all my problems within a matter of moments (not counting the wait time).  Then again, all the assholes who expect to have everything handed to them would try to take advantage of it and ruin it for all the other assholes (like me).

Well that all for now.  Thanks for reading!



And also, a bird took a giant shit on my car.

The beginning...

        Tonight, and hopefully moving forward (if I have the ambition to act on it) this is what I'm using as kinda of an outlet.  Something creative if not just a way to talk about things.  Input is as welcome as it is wanted.

As I sit here in bed (as I have all day after a sick day from work) watching Mad Men, I've been doing a lot of thinking.  I keep having these recurring thoughts about how everyone has something they are good at.  The problem is, I cant seem to come up with anything when it comes to myself.  Sure I'm good with computers software and hardware alike, but no more than a few other people I know.  I have this profound need to create something whether its in the traditional artistic sense like drawing or sketching but I just cant seem to get past the thought.  I think about it so much it hurts.  No matter how hard I try I cant even begin the process of thinking what I want to come out of me and the more I think about it the more I realize its been a problem for years.  So far back as high school I can remember having the same issue.  I know I have a sharp mind and I'm far from dumb but when it came to school work it just seemed...unnecessary.  This effected my grades and how I completed school work.  Things were always put off until the last minute and I only did what was necessary to complete the project and get a passing grade.  This carried over into college which lasted two semesters and I have nothing to show for it.  I want desperately to continue but have no idea what I want to go for.  I seem to have a problem focusing.  Even now as I write this I keep having to stop and think about how to continue.

 My main problem is that I have aspirations, goals, whatever you want to call them, and I have absolutely no idea how to achieve them.  I want to play an instrument so bad, but when it comes to actually playing or practicing it last a short period of time and thats that.  Artisticly I have ideas that I want to come out but when I try to get it out my creative flow seems blocked or it never turns out the way I had imagined.  Do I just need something to inspire me?  Is it my overwhelming inability to focus?  Am I just a plain old 25 year old male destined to live in upstate NY working some dead end job, barely able to get by and end up with nothing to show for it?  I hate my job.  I hate the type of job that I do yet I've done it for the past 4 years for 3 different companies and not once have I attempted to even look for a better job.  I feel stuck and need guidance.  I know where I want to go but have no idea how to get there. 

Well I guess that's all for now.  I'd like to make this a regular occurance but I can almost guarantee, just like everything else I attempt that this will be a one time outting.  Thanks for listening.